Firstly let me write. My ultimate ambition. Let others follow. Let other ambitions follow. I do not care

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Firstly i will write diaries. Continous diaries. On the same blog. What happened in my life. Should i publish them i would see later. Firstly let me write. My ultimate ambition. Let others follow. Let other ambitions follow. I do not care.

Then, writing about? Explanations. Of. Divine, Workings, Whys, Mysteries, Behaviours. Yes. Thats all.

Reading my self feeds me, I love reading myself. I am feeling light. I am in search of best mode of expression. Best subject of expression. What inadequacy i find with Arts. Perhaps it has no words. It is philosophical but what ab words. Where are words. Words have more clarity than visuals.

Perhaps to different minds different mediums suit.

Why not to embrace all sujects. Literature. No. Why to confine to boundaries of Literature. Remember expression. Be it anything. Through body movements, to writing, to thinking etc.

Which are the most fundamental activities through which man expresses. Talking, Writing, Moving. I will pick writing.

Then, writing about? Explanations. Of. Divine, Workings, Whys, Mysteries, Behaviours. Yes. Thats all.

Human love is based on 'twos emotions'

i saw the explanations of life with different heirarchies. All saying the same thing. Which chain to follow. None. I have found the structure. Structure of life. Tree of Life. With its all branches. Braches with headings of different subjects. Life is Knowledge. And knowledge is arranged sciences.

One series says: Psychology - Emotions - Cosciousness - Behaviors - Sufferings - Solutions

You will find a refinement of variables as move on to the series. Man fights.

Another series say - Philosophy - Love for knowledge - Understanding - Liberation - Wisdom - Isolotion - Thinking - Bliss

This second series is more beautiful. It is not dependant on scientific findings rather on Intuitions. Self findings. Not borrowed or experimented. But Self Findings. Self Felt. And thats the beauty

Third series spirituality is not good in a sense that it jails you into religion. One needs liberation to be jailed! Do you think so. So this is poverty.

Human love is based on 'twos emotions' , it should be one. self dependant. love for knowledge.

first i will express than expression itself arange it

My purpose

my purpose of life is to express. first i will express than expression itself will arrange it. the beauty inside will be arranged itself and thats the beauty thats the perfection, i seek.

Where mind and soul is both used. Both find the application.

How happy i feel when i say, I cried alot before people. For. Stupidity. Though it was available to me. I just want to be funny. Easy going. Free. Writing is the journey where you dont need to meditate. Where mind and soul is both used. Both find the application.

Boy, kid and the mother

Woman are bipolar thats why they are called 'maya'. They think, act and behave all in three different 'phases' simultaneously. That's why they are called illusion.

They are not wrong in themselves, perhaps they enjoy this.

They are the mirror of what you are. They behave in a way that suits you, and that does not suit you. This way they 'trace' their love (for you). False love they seek and false love they find. This way they are never quenched.

Boy, kid and the mother. They are. When they find a boy in man. They are the happiest. This is what compliements. They search the man but what they need is boy and a kid who fulfills the man and the kid needs both.

my dearest one

O' God my dearest one,
why you are invisible.
Why am i,
I saw you everywhere
but why not always
mind
stops
seeing you
everytime

That's the beauty I love

Hay, i was thinking what is life.

Somtime bliss, mostly bliss

sometimes energy takes over

smoke like barriers takes me over

society its rituals, ironies, contrasts they become inside, of me. I know i need lots of editing. But i hate editing. I like flow like river. Spirit. The very beautiful word drives me. I do not like the word life. Similarly i do not like the word 'atma'. But I like the word 'God'. But i never saw him. The most beautiful thing about God is he is the Greatest and too too too wide to be understood. That's the beauty. My mind wants to fathom Him. In his greatness, in its search it finds the ground to run run as fastest as it can. That's the beauty. I love. I really love to run for Him. People say within. I say everywhere.

The problem running outside you will find hurdles, deviations. But inside its beautiful. Endless. I have been. I reached to the point of stillness, but why i do i get confused sometime, 'bhramit' sometime.

I was in search of love for so time, but worldy love is 'bharamit'. It demands like a beggar. This is full of bad things. Bad shackles. I do not like that. I want a love like river, eat as much as you can drink as much as you can and run over to next destination. Everything is God. Love it and move on. Like Rock Concert Team heading towards next journey. That's the beauty I love.

going to begin

I am going to begin writing for the project

i am not satisfied

I have one more problem,

that to have selection of template for my project,

i have tried two wordpress themes,

but i am not satisfied,

it limits me, my presentation

on the one hand i want an academic look, on the other i want tech savvy, how to maintain the balance, i know too much about designing, my knowledge interrupts me in simple growth,

i think i should proceed in whatever way i can, progression is important, by the time i learn, not the structure,

but i get inspiration from design,

i will continue...

craving for beauty

But what about my project. That conflict is still in my mind.

Craving for beauty.

I have the presentation for Art Project but i find it difficult to select graphics for it.

I have too too high standards for it.

I think i should begin with whatever standards i have (or i am).

Everybody learns from doing, so should i.

history being Time related...

Yes, this was a little better day, i enjoyed fox history, and was shocked to know about the horrific turn the world history is taking. Modernity and unequal distribution of 'progress' causing danger to human civilization.

Knowing about world history is so structural and important for better thinking.

How little we know about the world we live in.

History being Time related would always be more important than other upcoming sciences.

thank u blogger

I want to thank blogger giving great opportunity and tool to express.

my today's agenda

My todays agenda is very simple:

Go throught the feeds, as i used to do and its a very beautiful experience, i used to see the technical feeds.

Than go through the mails.

Than my main work, going through my favourite art book, being inspired and write for my art project.

May this be my everyday.

i have to deliver

The great old problem of mine of Structure.

I am a structure lover and perfectionist.

And so my projects never comes to fruition.

This time too i am tied to my concepts of imperfection and self criticism.

But i will win over. Because i have to deliver.

great great expresser

I had been thinking so long to put my random thoughts on blog, and i did it today.

Its a great organiser and a great great expresser.

scheduling

I read one very beautiful in the morning. Its from a blog and it says SCHEDULING. This really touched me.

I need this. Perhaps everybody.

This is my thought of the day.

My things are so random that they forget to schedule.

It says schedule your day and you are done.

but i forgot to switch on the pump!

I had a strange way to keep my rememberance. I practiced it today. There was nobody in the home. And i had to put the water pump on to keep my water filter functioning well. (it may go wrong if there is no water from the main supply.)
So i was too feared what to do, as i am very quick to forget. My memory follows instructions which are too fresh, too too fresh. So random with its random access memory system.
So what i did was really creative!!! (smile)
I put all my lights on. Put a tag on my wrist, what do you call to wrap. And yes...successful it was. I put the switch off at the very right time.
But the most humrous thing was, when i put all lights and the rope on my hand, i forgot to switch on the pump!